theforgottenx3

Today was horrible. It all started after i woke up. My mom has been complaining that i havent been eating enough and she made French Toast and got 2 of them and MADE me eat it! Ew. and i took a few bites and told her i was full and she was like oh no your not and so i had to eat the whole thing. Ug.. Right after that i had to go shopping so i coldnt throw up. Oh it gets worse. After i got home she made me eat lunch. I was going to go insane. I didnt have any salad and so i ate a peanut butter jelly sandwich. i feel sick now. and i KNOW i must have gained weight.. Oh this is GReat..

it was going Pretty good until the fam ordered pizza and i said i wasnt hungry but they told me to at least eat a breadstik so i had to eat it. Bleh.. i've been drinking tons of water though.

Eh. I dont have a headache anymore, im starting to take advil to much. Anyways, i ended up not hanging out with my boyfriend today. He was kinda pissed but said we should get together tomorrow. i had a cup of black coffee. i dont plan on drinking anything else today except for water. Todays almost Over. Something i actually look forward to.

Ugh.. i cant stop thinking about food. WHen i do, i just look in the mirror and its like im cured. All i had today was a cup of green tea. Yesterday i didnt eat anything and i had a horrible headache. I get headaches when i dont eat. i have one right now. My boyfriend wants to go to the movies and dinner tonight. He doesnt know that i'm ana. I REALLY dont want to go out tonight. Ill probably just make up an excuse on why we cant hang out. Ill say i dont feel good, or something... He'll be pissed.. Ill probably write again later tonight.

So Tomorrow Im going to Start my fast. No food, Just water and Green Tea. It would be easier if i had a fasting buddy, but oh well..

Cw: 154.. cow..